Halloween Times

Since my last post, a lot has been happening to my world. A year on the 19th October my grandad past away and that was a hard day, as I have been so unwell lately, the person who I would always seek advice and comfort from is not here anymore, and that day was a harsh reminder!!!

My best friend had been having relationship problems and this blog is about my honesty through out and I didnt really want to put my feelings on here, even though I seem to have made them quite clear to them both. Well the good news is that they are both giving it another go, as much as I hated them being together at first (as I fancied the pants of him) I see that they are really good together and hope they can continue to grow OLD (minus wrinkles) together!!! :-)

I have been spending a lot of time in hospital. I was in the middle of November going to have a vascuport inserted so I did not need the continuous poking and prodding of canulars, however, I was discharged the begining of November and was due to come back in a week before, but soon as I got home, I picked up another cold, and wasnt well enough for a general anesthesia, and becuase the internal jugular (the vein needed to be used for this) the surgeon was reluctant to perform this under a local. So I was cancelled until further notice. HOWEVER!!!!! - I did not want the operation anyhow! Why?

Well is simple really, last time I had a GA (general) I was knocked about a fair bit and my chest was terrible afterwards, and 2 months later I nearly died, and needed NIV (non-invasive-ventilator) for 3 weeks 24/7 and it took me along time to recover from that stretch of being ill, and now 2 and 1/2 years on I wear the NIV at night to keep my airways open and disguard the Co2 which I cannot breathe out, so I thought -

Well I am at a "crap" point in my life with my lungs, I was terrified of having a GA as I have always said since the last one, I wouldnt have another unless it was for a transplant!!!

So a lucky escape there...... for now!




Since has been halloween and here is a picture of my girls - they came to visit me whilst I was in hospital -

They were very scary looking and got some treats from the nurses and some fellow patients.

My Very First Blog

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars:


To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all


The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple


Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing.


When we are happy we are always good, but when we are good we are not always happy


Anybody can make history. Only a great man can write it - Oscar Wilde - My favourite quotes: More to come.

I am not quite sure what to write here in my blog and at the moment noone know's I have created one. so whilst I spend alot of time in hospital at the moment I thought it would be nice to share a few things: